Strangulated!

If morning gives you jitters, and makes you regret where you are stepping out for.. you're not in the right job. What you are doing, isn't something you are meant for! You emotions revolve around your head through the day and you try to imagine your purpose for being at a certain place.

There have been lessons taught to be 'a man of your own will' 'be what you wanna be' .. where the !@#%^$ is the option. I is a forgotten word anymore, what you are meant to be remembered is: please,excuseme,SORRY,may I etc. Ridiculous as it sounds to one's self, is even more to others. Peers would look down upon you as a looser, a non-master of will and a stranded-in-the-middle of nowhere man. Given the fact that you started off with a thought of possessing a luxury car by the end of 2010, you are pondering over the thought of pushing the deadline to at least 20 more 'struggling' years.

Cheating,ideas,betrayals,denials are a family of emotions erupting just when you think of a suicide.. or in some cases a little less. Solace is a word which seems so meaningless. Where does that live?(solace). This is when the bravado is the emotion which takes over. Ever heard of a bruise going numb after being repeatedly hit on! The experience is the same.

No one is following his heart except the ones who got lucky without their knowledge or choice of being in the right place. Only one question would revolutionize the way you are thinking at the moment. Are you content? Is this where you belong?